dearest mitang
(i wrote this yesterday actually, but forgot to save and my window was closed abruptly)
i miss you so much, do you know?
thought i could chat with you earlier.. but you were having dance. i had to go to school for class after that, as I had already missed my lecture in the morning due to my long stays in the toilet.
tutorial was alright, i could understand.. was rather tired though.. and my stomach just kept making funny noises, i think the guy beside me is wondering what in the world is happening to me.
i wanted to go for swimming after class (as in join the cca).. but then the pool is closed till 1 March for renovations. I tried to send an email to the prof in charge… but the mail is bounced because the mailbox is full..
hmm, so how?
sheesh. i was looking forward to swimming, because it’s indoor.. and i don’t want to just go on my own, because it costs me 2,50E to enter.. which is so freaking expensive!
i would rather run, but it’s so cold outside. well, not really that cold la.. i didn’t wear thermals at all today, just a tshirt, jeans and a trench coat.
but my legs were so cold without the thermals!!!
i think i’m acting colder and colder by the moment. i don’t mean the weather, i mean the attitude.. because…
i find myself responding less and less. just be glad that i even say “uh” sometimes.
on the trains, i don’t smile at anyone either, even if another asian person smiles at me. one prc woman smiled at me on the train today. i just stared back at here, then continued staring back into space.
where is deardear to give me some warmth?
i see the way the couples sit on the train.. so cute! the guy sits on the chair, and then the girl sits on his lap. and it’s like a normal thing here, no one gives weird stares at you anyway..
and i was walking to the swimming pool and then this guy was like hugging the girl from behind and walking together, just like how you used to do that with me back in singapore…
and i’m thinking.. omg, where is my dear dear?
do you still remember this photo?
or this?
i need you to keep me sane! otherwise…. urgh.
i miss you so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
