chaque jour je t’aime davantage, aujourd’hui plus qu’hier et bien moins que demain

sorry, just noticed this cool function that wordpress has, such that i can do a poll. and it comes in such nice designs too!

anyway.. omg, i realised i am so damn stupid. haish. oh well, i have to chiong this remaining one month to make up for it!

erm, literally and non-literally that is.

i am sick of

1) I AM SO FAT!!! i seriously need to run tmr! and i need to go for a swim this weekend too!

2) studying! omg. it’s so damn boring and tough to study, especially when your brother and your mum are arguing so loudly in the background because your brother can never remember what you had taught him over and over again.. which brings me to my third point…

3) my bro not remembering his stuff and giving me extra trouble, causing me to be unable to study for MY OWN FREAKING TEST (erm, i will go back to my books after this of course)

4) being cooped up in singapore! not that there’s anything wrong with singapore (even if there is, it’s not that i really want to write a 1001 page essay on it over here because i need to get back to my mugging_.. but in the sense that i want to go on a holiday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (and seriously i really hope that the insa letter will come soon! but at least now they said they’re processing the applications, thank goodness)

and.. i was reading yy’s blog.. then i happened to see this:

btw this is to hw, you are still welcome to join us for the trip, if you miraculously found someone that both me and darling are comfortable with as a travelling companion.

i mean.. hmm, it’s kinda obvious i’m not welcomed :( (by yy i mean, i think yt is okay with me, i hope!) because

…how hard is it to find a gf as a travelling companion? but of course if he’s going with them.. it means that he CANNOT find me as a companion and will have to search for someone else instead.. which is why it has to be a miracle, since it’s pretty close to departure and people might have had plans already…

which is like so stupidly childish of yy.

i don’t even know what’s his fucking problem. seriously. he just suddenly turned up one day in hall.. starting all those stupid “rumours” with photoshopped pictures.. then when i walk along the corridor to my room, he will purposely PLASTER himself *splat* onto the wall to avoid getting anyway within like 1893713221739237m of me.

like wth right?

anyway… not that i want to have such a travelling companion anyway! lol.

aiyah but whatever la.. deardear can go with them if he wants to la.. it’s not as if i don’t need to save up for my exchange… so i can’t go anyway! :(

but i expect i’ll be quite busy settling visa and stuff in dec as well la (besides catching up with friends).. so yeah.

lol, i sound like im just consoling myself! hahahahah.

but if deardear goes with them, then he wouldn’t be able to keep me company before i fly off and we won’t see each other for like 6-7 months.

i took some taiwan itinerary from the travel agency (as i was taking the europe trafalgar books! lol) the other time la.. but looks like i have to chuck them into the rubbish bin! lol

bleahh.

ah well, stop thinking and get back to my cholinergic receptors :(